It was 2.30 in the morning.....Half the world was asleep....the weather was humid and sticky...The street-dogs were howling and groaning.. Seemed like they too wanted to blurt out their share of grievances....The clock ticked....It was 2.35...I was trying hard to forget all what happened...but ended up sulking again....
True what u have said is justified....yet it was difficult to gulp it down....difficult is not the right word though....i do not have a proper word to describe it..It pained....yet again! I closed my eyes...random thoughts passed my mind...and then again....your words played in my ears. could hear it distinctly....
It was as if i was getting drowned into the colourless ocean of pain....I dint know how to swim...The water entered through my nostrils, my ears, my eyes....It choked me...i dint want to hit the bottom...but was too frail and weak to resist death. I could not breathe...I couldn't scream....I turned cold
That is how life would be without you....I said to myself! But then....Never have i been able to change destiny!Nor will I ever be able to....There were moments of silence after you said it...and in those few moments those horrendous memories flashed by. memories i have left behind. I felt crippled.
This time i tried diverting my thoughts...How plain and innocent was my childhood! How i wished I was still a school girl in a frock playing around in my garden....picking flowers for the morning puja. How would it have been had i met you then? I smiled.....in few seconds,the smile vanished I was stunned at the realisation that dawned on me....It was difficult to cut you out from any and every thought of mine. Scary!
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